in case you forgot..

this.is.life

money money money mooooooney

oh the many lives of Kristin...
since my mom moved out a few months ago,
I've now earned extra bucks through..
-cleaning windows for old people
-doing makeup for friends/ people looking for something new on a saturday night
-babysitting
-dog walking
-bartending for parties

what a random life i live!

i tried dating for a bit..
what can i say, it's just not for me!
dont like the commitment,
dont like the people
and dont like being tied down!
I'm happy being single and irresponsible

i'm looking at apartments for myself;
but still not sure if my dad can keep the house if i move out..
it's too much to lose a mother AND a home all in a year;
i'd rather suck it up and live at home with my dad so my siblings have a place to call home..
i couldnt imagine not having this house to come home to..
it's been home after new zealand, home after texas and home after so many other crazy adventures...

the small restaurant i've been a server at for 3 years, is now partially my restaurant...
i'm manager and almost co-owner of this place..
i'm not sure if i'm ready to put in the crazy 60+ hour work weeks it will take to keep this place a-float
my boss is training me so i can take over the place
how crazy... Kristin = restaurant owner!>!>!

my best friend and her baby have become my liiiiife;
she's in ireland for 2 months now,
and my heart is lost without them

just look at how cute the two of them are
i know everyone with ugly babies out there are totally jealous!!

well.. this is my life these days
learning to adjust
struggeling to survive
and neglecting to love as much as i should..

something good will come;
i'm sure of it!

I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet but
At your Word Lord, I’ll receive Your
Faith to walk on oceans deep

And I remember how You found me:
In that very same place
All my failing surely would've drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus you’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life, here in my life?

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds
The way to freedom, truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His life

And I remember how You saw me:
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the cost was Your beloved for me
Still you made a way!

sarah.
because of your love
lives have been changed
lives WILL continue to be changed.

you are in his loving arms now
oh the joy you must be filled with.

you've left your mark on this world.
and are loved by many

until we meet again

xoxo

blog.now

thoughts?
too many to know where to begin.

as we sat there,
drinkin wine.
laughing.
sharing.
being together
i looked at her and realized,
this is the last normal thursday. week. of my life.
in six days this home i've grown to love and admire for 23 years,
becomes an empty. broken. pain filled house

in six days
my father will loose his soulmate;
in six days
my brother will loose someone he thought would never hurt him
in six days
i will no longer be able to end every day saying goodnight to my best friend.

my mother is leaving.
she has decided to try and start a new life
claiming she hasnt been able to be herself.
she has been "hiding behind us"
"distracting herself with our busy lives"

my heart breaks.
and breaks
and breaks
and breaks

my kids will never know the amazing life my parents have given me;
together
they will never see the love i saw between my them
they will never experience what i hoped our family would share together
family camping
christmas traditions
holiday rituals
vacations
music
laughter
jokes
being a family

I've always hated having a small family.
and now,
we're getting smaller.

my mom is gay.
she's leaving my father because she feels like she is living a lie.
since when did marriage vows become
"till death do us part, or someone wants a new lifestyle".
is this my view on homosexuality?
no!
is this my view on marriage?
yes!
25 years of marriage,
and now you're abandoning your husband.
not cool!
i love my mom. more then anything in the world.
but when i see someone cause this much pain to people they "love"
it causes me to think.

what is love?
when is it forever
and when is it
until something else comes along?

i have so many thoughts.
and so much to say.
but i dont even know where to start.

let me introduce you to...

the CUTEST baby in the world.
my god child, chloe taryn ann.

she is the daughter of a good friend of mine i met at school last year.
i'm so excited to watch her grow up and share amazing memories together.

i know, she's adorable.
and cuter then any baby you've seen before.
it's ok to be jealous!